Jules and I process what we learned from The Rupture and the group repair since the retreat.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Jules and I talk about a rupture at the end of the retreat, and how our group repaired it and what that was like for each of us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Jules, Max, Mar-Lev, Debs, and Alex Meow reflect on our Advanced Topics Retreat weekend.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We read and respond to listener emails.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We process trying to re-engage in therapy.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We reflect on the impact of being on our own, and share (Thanksgiving) gratitude for yous.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We give an update on the family with Nathan, including discussion about co-dependency and letting go and new growth in therapy.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We give an update on the family with Nathan, including discussion about co-dependency and letting go and new growth in therapy.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Announcement: Mighty Network did *not* let us down easy!The website and app for all Mighty Networks (which hosts our site and groups) went down suddenly this morning, which was distressing to many in our community - and sent hundreds of emails to me.  So I’m just posting a quick announcement to explain what happened and give some reassurance.WHAT HAPPENED:Might Network itself is down.  This is unrelated to our new website, which we had only started soft-launching in the community.   We have NOT shut down the old site, and Mighty Network says it is "maintenance" and will be back up soon.You can see the website down info HERE, including getting any updates from Mighty Network.You can register for the new website HERE, if you don't want to wait for the official launch because of whatever is going on with Mighty Network.   Registration, like before, is in two phases:  (1) signing up for the site and (free) forums itself, and (2) choosing a plan if you also want groups.   Registration may take up to 24-36 hours to fully update your sign-in and for everything to work properly.If you have further questions or need additional reassurance, you can email us using the name Emma at [community name] dotttt com.EDIT 12/12/23 220pm EST - it looks like Mighty Networks is attempting a recovering, but it may take some time for things to be re-loaded and functioning properly.  Thank you for your patience! ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We give an update on the family and how un-dissociating hits hard with reality when we can’t even daydream the good.  Content note: there is much discussion (and exasperation) that parenting is hard.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Squirls and Coons. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Nathan about an email sent to the podcast (part two of one).  We process the changes in our relationship and the positive impact on our family.  We explore the good Jules has added, and confront the daydreaming to discuss what un-dissociating means - and how to do that without binary thinking.  We talk about the dynamics of Em and Dante, and how the good in our life now is from the hard work we did in the past.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We process after therapy, considering the reality of life without dissociation.  We review what we have learned about less binary thinking, seeing more clearly how to “hold both”, and reflect on life when it is safe and stable.  We explore healthy letting go - of daydreams, of trauma, and of life as it unfolds.I've learned to slam on the brakeBefore I even turn the keyBefore I make the mistakeBefore I lead with the worst of meGive them no reason to stareNo slipping up if you slip awaySo I got nothing to shareNo, I got nothing to sayStep out, step out of the sun if you keep getting burnedStep out, step out of the sun because you've learnedBecause you've learnedOn the outside always looking inWill I, ever be more than I've always been?'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glassI'm waving through a windowI, tried to speak but nobody can hearSo I, wait around for an answer to appearWhile I'm watch, watch, watching people passI'm waving through a windowCan anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?We start with stars in our eyesWe start believing that we belongBut every sun doesn't riseAnd no one tells you where you went wrongStep out, step out of the sun if you keep getting burnedStep out, step out of the sun because you've learnedBecause you've learnedOn the outside always looking inWill I, ever be more than I've always been?Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glassWaving through a windowI, tried to speak but nobody can hearSo I, wait around for an answer to appearWhile I'm watch, watch, watching people passWaving through a windowCan anybody see, is anybody waving?When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody aroundDo you ever really crash or even make a sound?When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody aroundDo you ever really crash or even make a sound?When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody aroundDo you ever really crash or even make a sound?When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody aroundDo you ever really crash or even make a sound?Did I even make a sound?Did I even make a sound?It's like I never made a soundWill I ever make a sound?On the outside always looking inWill I, ever be more than I've always been?Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glassWaving through a windowI, tried to speak but nobody can hearSo I, wait around for an answer to appearWhile I'm watch, watch, watching people passWaving through a windowCan anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We try to process the last month, sharing (without detail) our experience of what is happening in the world, trying to process it, and our response.Keep your helmet, keep your life, sonJust a flesh wound, here's your rifleCrawling up the beaches now"Sir, I think he's bleeding out"And some things you just can't speak aboutWith you, I serveWith you, I fall down, downWatch you breathe inWatch you breathing out, outSomething med school did not coverSomeone's daughter, someone's motherHolds your hand through plastic now"Doc, I think she's crashing out"And some things you just can't speak aboutOnly 20 minutes to sleepBut you dream of some epiphanyJust one single glimpse of reliefTo make some sense of what you've seenWith you, I serveWith you, I fall down, down (down)Watch you breathe inWatch you breathing out, outWith you, I serveWith you, I fall down (down), down (down)Watch you breathe inWatch you breathing out (out), outOnly 20 minutes to sleepBut you dream of some epiphanyJust one single glimpse of reliefTo make some sense of what you've seenWrite to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share about exploring our community in real life in person, and discuss about actually talking about DiD and journaling in therapy.Fixing up a car to drive in it againSearching for the water hoping for the rainUp and up, up and upDown upon the canvas, working meal to mealWaiting for a chance to pick your orange fieldUp and up, up and upSee a pearl form, a diamond in the roughSee a bird soaring high above the floodIt's in your blood, it's in your bloodUnderneath the storm an umbrella is saying"Sitting with the poison takes away the pain"Up and up, up and up it's sayingWe're gonna get it, get it together, I knowI'm gonna get it, get it together somehowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowerWoah, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohWe're gonna get it, get it together I knowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowI'm gonna get it, get it together and goUp and up and upLying in the gutter, aiming for the moonTrying to empty out the ocean with a spoonUp and up, up and upHow come people suffer, how come people part?How come people struggle, how come people break your heart?Break your heart, oh-ohYes I want to grow, yes I want to feelYes I want to know, show me how to heal it upHeal it upSee the forest there in every seedAngels in the marble waiting to be freedJust need love just need loveWhen the going is rough, sayingWe're gonna get it, get it together, I knowI'm gonna get it, get it together somehowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowerWoah, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohWe're gonna get it, get it together I knowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowI'm gonna get it, get it together and goAnd you can say what is, or fight for itClose your mind or take a riskYou can say it's mine and clench your fistOr see each sunrise as a giftWe're gonna get it, get it together, I knowI'm gonna get it, get it together somehowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowerWoah, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohWe're gonna get it, get it together I knowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowI'm gonna get it, get it together and goUp and up and upWe're gonna get it, get it together, I knowI'm gonna get it, get it together somehowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowerWoah, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohWe're gonna get it, get it together I knowWe're gonna get it, get it together and flowI'm gonna get it, get it together and goUp and up and upOh-oh-ohOh-oh-ohOh-oh-ohOh-oh-ohFixing up a car to drive in it againWhen you're in painWhen you think you've had enoughDon't ever give upDon't ever give upWrite to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We discuss an “inner child” chapter from the book Leaving the Fold.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We struggle with talking about things directly in therapy, even when we are trying.  Content warning for reference to infant neglect, developmental and relational trauma, and lack of nurture.Safe and Sound Lyrics:I remember tears streaming down your face When I said I'll never let you goWhen all those shadows almost killed your lightI remember you said don't leave me here aloneBut all that's dead and gone and passed tonightJust close your eyes, the sun is going downYou'll be alright, no one can hurt you nowCome morning light, you and I'll be safe and soundDon't you dare look out your window, darling, everything's on fireThe war outside our door keeps raging onHold onto this lullaby even when the music's gone, goneJust close your eyes, the sun is going downYou'll be alright, no one can hurt you nowCome morning light, you and I'll be safe and soundJust close your eyesYou'll be alrightCome morning lightYou and I'll be safe and soundWrite to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Therapy Update.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We explore the impact of religious trauma (with Jules).  We talk about behavioral expressions of shame.  We talk about internal re-enactments.CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Lyrics to “What a Good Boy” by Barenaked Ladies:When I was bornThey looked at me and saidWhat a good boyWhat a smart boyWhat a strong boyAnd when you were bornThey looked at you and saidWhat a good girlWhat a smart girlWhat a pretty girlWe've got these chainsHanging 'round our necksPeople want to strangle us with themBefore we take our first breathAfraid of changeAfraid of staying the sameWhen temptation callsWe just look awayThis name is the hair shirt I wearAnd this hair shirt is woven from your brown hairThis song is the cross that I bearBear with meBear with meBear with meBe with me tonightI know that it isn't rightBut be with me tonightI go to schoolI write examsIf I pass if I fail if I drop outDoes anyone give a damn?And if they doThey'll soon forget'Cause it won't take much for meTo show my life ain't over yetI wake up scaredI wake up strangeI wake up wondering if anything in my lifeIs ever gonna changeI wake up scaredI wake up strangeAnd everything around me stays the sameIt's the hair shirt I wearAnd this hair shirt is woven fromIt's woven from your brown hairThis song is the cross that I bearBear with meBear with meBear with meBe with me tonightI know that it isn't rightBut be with me tonightI couldn't tell youI was wrongChickened out grabbed a pen and a paperSat down and I wrote this songI couldn't tell youThat you were rightSo instead I looked in the mirrorWatched TV, laid awake all nightWe've got these chainsHanging round our necksPeople want to strangle us with themBefore we take our first breathAfraid of changeAfraid of staying the sameWhen temptation calls, yeahThis name is the hair shirt I wearAnd this hair shirt is woven fromIt's woven fromIt's woven from hairThis song is the cross that I bearBear with meBear with meBear with meBe with me tonightAnd when I was bornThey looked at me and saidWhat a good boyWhat a smart boyWhat a strong boyAnd when you were bornThey looked at you and saidWhat a good girlWhat a smart girlWhat a pretty girl, yeah, yeahWrite to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Three Anouncements:1.)  I am speaking on Saturday, October 21st at the ISSTD Virtual Conference, which clinicians can register for HERE.2.)  I am a plenary speaker for the ISSTD annual conference in March in Texas, which clinicians can register for HERE.3.)  Jules and I will be teaching together for ISSTD's professional training program, starting in January.  Clinicians can register for that HERE.We also have a grand idea for lived experience peeps in the future, so be excited that's coming!Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We speak with Judith Herman, who wrote the history of trauma in the book Trauma and Recovery we have discussed so often.  She is also credited with establishing the phased based treatment model, including adding safety and stabilization where prior to this it was primarily abreactive treatment approach.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

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We reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning.The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode:  WTF Do I Know?The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case).Link to the book by the guest author in that episode:  Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex TraumaLink to Pete Walker's book that the author references that we have mentioned before: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A Guide and Map for Recovering from Childhood Trauma"Shiny, Happy People" is the name of the IBLP (religious trauma) documentary that includes the Duggar family issues.  This documentary is on Amazon Prime.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning.The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode:  WTF Do I Know?The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case).Link to the book by the guest author in that episode:  Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex TraumaLink to Pete Walker's book that the author references that we have mentioned before: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A Guide and Map for Recovering from Childhood Trauma"Shiny, Happy People" is the name of the IBLP (religious trauma) documentary that includes the Duggar family issues.  This documentary is on Amazon Prime.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We reflect with Jules about another podcast we listened to a specific episode about fawning.The link to the Spotify podcast we listened to and are responding to in this episode:  WTF Do I Know?The documentary that podcast host is on HBO and it is called "The Vow" (non-religious philisophical cult and related court case).Link to the book by the guest author in that episode:  Believing Me: Healing from Narcissistic Abuse and Complex TraumaLink to Pete Walker's book that the author references that we have mentioned before:  Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving: A Guide and Map for Recovering from Childhood Trauma"Shiny, Happy People" is the name of the IBLP (religious trauma) documentary that includes the Duggar family issues.  This documentary is on Amazon Prime.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We read and respond to listener emails.NPR podcast about the Jewish Atheist Chaplain:  Part One and Part TwoWrite to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Rick Hohfeler, PhD, who shares about shame.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Broke it good.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share a therapy update.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with the children about the “Leaving the Fold” book, and have a conversation about healthy family dynamics.CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talked about the “Shiny Happy People” documentary about the religious trauma we grew up in and in which our college experiences happened.CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share about meeting our new therapist, finally, and how we know we can stay with her.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Katie Wood, who presented at Healing Together about medical abuse.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We go through more of the book “Leaving the Fold” about religious trauma.  At the ten minute mark, in my example of leaving the family, I am talking about my family of origin when I was barely an adult.CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share updates about our new job, our new home, and letting go of the house in Oklahoma.Write to the podcast HERE.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We continue reading “Leaving the Fold” about religious traumaLink to Lev's podcast, where we were a guest to talk about our spiritual journey as an adult (available only on spotify):Click HERE or copy and paste:https://open.spotify.com/episode/0k2s08TvY9VzVIokCIYWoi?si=9Pb9tVq5RxCbeuZueszEmwCLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE, but due to an Apple issue, you must use a non-Apple device or non-Safari browser to join.  Once you have joined, it should work fine on any device.   Remember there are two steps: joining the community network itself, and then also choosing which groups to join.  Everything happens inside the groups!   Additional Zoom group events are optional.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  This is a non-clinical space for people with dissociative disorders.Other podcasts that may be supportive for those navigating leaving or transitioning from a faith tradition, and/or the intersection of their Queerness and Faith/Heritage/Culture:Jewish:Kosher QueersThe Queer JewMuslim:Queer Muslim StoriesThe Queer ArabsHindu:Queer KahaniQueering DesiCatholic:Queer Catholic TalkQueer TheologyEvangelical:How Gay Thou ArtThe New Evangelicals PodcastLDS:Called to QueerQuestions from the ClosetGeneral/Other:Queer Religion PodcastQueer ChristianityQueerology: A Podcast on Belief and BeingThat's What She SaidLiving Out PodcastOur Loud: GLBT Stories of FaithFor LGBT help:www.LGBTHotline.orgwww.TheTrevorProject.orgContent Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Shelly Itzkowitz.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We start over, again.  Almost.  Trying a coach to support therapy topics does not work when we panic about starting with someone new.  We ask hard questions about this being part of a re-enactment.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We walk through the notes of the recap of the Janina Fisher webinar.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We walk through the notes of the recap of the Janina Fisher webinar.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with D. Michael Coy.  He shares about somatic dissociation, medical trauma, and his own lived experience.  We discuss identity development and movements.  We explore intersectionality.  We talk about dissociation informed EMDR and the MID.Links provided in the podcast intro:The System Speak Website, where there's a button for donations to keep the podcast on-air, and you can offer a one-time donation to support the podcast or become an ongoing subscriber.  If you would like to support our efforts at sharing our story and fighting stigma about dissociative identity disorder, and educating the community and the world about trauma and dissociation, you can also donate to support the podcast HERE.Follow us on Patreon HERE for early access to updates, pictures, videos, and what's unfolding for us.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share an update on therapy, religious trauma books we have been reading, and what we have been learning.CLICK HERE for our page of support resources for religious trauma.Other podcasts that may be supportive for those navigating the intersection of their Queerness and Faith/Heritage/Culture:Jewish:Kosher QueersThe Queer JewMuslim:Queer Muslim StoriesThe Queer ArabsHindu:Queer KahaniQueering DesiCatholic:Queer Catholic TalkQueer TheologyEvangelical:How Gay Thou ArtThe New Evangelicals PodcastLDS:Called to QueerQuestions from the ClosetGeneral/Other:Queer Religion PodcastQueer ChristianityQueerology: A Podcast on Belief and BeingThat's What She SaidLiving Out PodcastOur Loud: GLBT Stories of FaithFor LGBT help:www.LGBTHotline.orgwww.TheTrevorProject.orgContent Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We are back in Oklahoma for a few weeks (recorded 26 February 2023), and check in with the husband to share an update on all that’s happened and how we are both doing.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We are back in Oklahoma for a week (recorded 16 January 2023), and check in with the husband to share an update on all that’s happened and how we are both doing.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Laura Brown about feminist theory, feminist rage, anger, institutionalize, religious trauma, and queerness.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We explore the boundaries of us, no matter what others think or feel about us, but in context of being true to ourselves and compassionate to others - even when recovering from mistakes.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Joanne Twombly, a therapist and author, about Internal Family Systems.Her book link is HERE.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We went to eat. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest this week is Steven Gold, PhD.  We talk about trauma, neglect, and dissociation, and he shares about how he broadens understanding of all these terms.  We also talk about attachment and the "mirror" of how we see ourselves.... and what happens when there is no mirror, when the mirror is broken, and when there are lots of mirror attempts.  We also discuss re-enactments and increasing our capacity for healing.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Lev from the community about their experiences in groups, their own story (religious trauma, sexuality, adoption trauma), and their new podcast about sobriety and recovery.Lev’s podcast is available on Spotify.A Meeting in Progress.https://open.spotify.com/show/1K0PppepPUpaTmBl7VC4yv?si=3M9shA-qSS2dpVis5Xn7fwLink to A Meeting In Progress episode with Emma:https://open.spotify.com/episode/0k2s08TvY9VzVIokCIYWoi?si=J52DW4iTRJG00r-OvnNOqw&nd=1The link to the episode with Dr. Jamie Marich on the Therapy Chat podcast is:https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/therapy-chat/id1031099411?i=1000592784828Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our colleague with lived experience, Dan Shaw, LCSW, who recently spoke at the ISSTD Virtual Conference, shares about “traumatic narcissism”, what he learned leaving the cult of an Indian Guru, and how the deepest piece of trauma is being alone in it.  This episode focuses on relational dynamics, and no examples of abuse are disclosed or discussed in detail.  Politics are mentioned in passing reference, but only in the dynamic context as part of our family’s experience as already shared on the podcast during the pandemic.www.danielshawlcsw.comwww.facebook.com/DanielShawLCSWAdditional link to referenced NPR Fresh Air episode (aired October 9, 2022, episode #5910):  https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/fresh-air/id214089682?i=1000583212020(Aired October 26, 2022, episode #5416)https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/fresh-air/id214089682?i=1000584007252Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We wrestle through a hard week of therapy, navigating healing in issues of sexuality and religious trauma.For LGBT help:www.LGBTHotline.orgwww.TheTrevorProject.orgContent Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We welcome back (new) Julie to recap with us the ISSTD Webinar featuring Janina Fisher.  We discuss alienation of self, underlying needs of trauma responses, and healing through compassion.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we are noticing and experiencing with blending.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Shainas share with us about how therapy helped her learn to advocate for herself to meet her own disability needs, and how learning to do this taught her about parts within herself.  She shares her story of getting diagnosed with DID and learning to work with parts.  We discuss the difference between people pleasing and fawning.  We explore the impact of trauma - and healing - on relationships.  We talk about how small progress in therapy and in caring for ourselves is part of a progressive process.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

This month in our NerdTown Topics Meetup, our colleague, Bill Woodburn, MEd, LPC-S, LMFT-S, shared about using stories in therapy.  This episode contains a passing reference to a gun in context of a story that is told, but no violence is described or discussed or detailed.  As always, care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

This month in our NerdTown Topics Meetup, our colleague, Bill Woodburn, MEd, LPC-S, LMFT-S, shared about using stories in therapy.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Holly from a previous episode and in our DID community comes back with her son Dylan to share about his thesis film, Petals of a Rose, about DID. This episode does include some reference to child sexual abuse and intergenerational trauma, but no details are disclosed or discussed. As always, care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Holly from a previous episode and in our DID community comes back with her son Dylan to share about his thesis film, Petals of a Rose, about DID.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with our friend from college.  We reminisce about how we experienced college and how she experienced our DID.  We explore the layers of religious and relational trauma we experienced there.  While no details are disclosed, trauma is referenced in the context of religious trauma, relational trauma, and child abuse.  As always, please care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with our friend from college.  We reminisce about how we experienced college and how she experienced our DID.  We explore the layers of religious and relational trauma we experienced there.  While no details are disclosed, trauma is referenced in the context of religious trauma, relational trauma, and child abuse.  As always, please care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with our friend from college.  We reminisce about how we experienced college and how she experienced our DID.  We explore the layers of religious and relational trauma we experienced there.  While no details are disclosed, trauma is referenced in the context of religious trauma, relational trauma, and child abuse.  As always, please care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with our friend from college, sharing what it was like to hear from her roommate after she came on the podcast last year.  We reminisce about how we experienced college and how she experienced our DID.  We begin exploring the layers of religious and relational trauma we experienced there.  While no details are disclosed, trauma is referenced in the context of religious trauma, relational trauma, and child abuse.  As always, please care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share our experiences of "spontaneous blending", and learn more about how to do it intentionally.Article from DID-Research:https://did-research.org/did/identity_alteration/switchingSteven Frankel's article we referenced:https://www.researchgate.net/publication/275024940_Rules_for_Blending_Alters_-_2006Pluralpedia article:https://pluralpedia.org/w/BlendingContent Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. Raja Selvam shares about embodied emotions.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Em shares an incident that happened with one of our outside kids, and how we were able to stand up and say no.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We chat with guest Rachel Walker about trauma and dissociation, parts work with littles, and how dolls sometimes help the most.Trauma Recovery Store:https://traumarecoverystore.comNeuroPeeps: https://traumarecoverystore.com/collections/neuropeep-dollsTrauma Recovery Guidebook for Therapists: https://traumarecoverystore.com/collections/books/products/trauma-recovery-guidebook-for-therapistsTrauma Recovery Handbook for Survivors:https://traumarecoverystore.com/collections/books/products/trauma-recovery-handbook-for-survivors-new-larger-size-11-x-8-5Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share our therapy discussion about how while useful at the beginning of therapy, NTIS or Now Time is NOT Safe is actually too binary for later in therapy.  We settle on SET, or “safe enough time”, to give room for the nuances and variety of circumstances and experiences in life.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

The husband reviews Transactional Analysis with the children, which he has taught them since they came to live with us.  The picture he drew on the whiteboard will be posted on the blog.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We speak with Kathleen Adams, PhD, about abject shame and suffering.  She shares about dissociative defenses and terror.  She explains abject shame and suffering.  CONTENT WARNING:  She gives numerous case study examples, some of which include references to abuse. A few of these are graphic, and told in the context of stories.  As always, care for yourself during and after listening to the podcast.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We Google search “attach cry”.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We chat with Larry, who presented at the 2022 Healing Together conference.  We share with each other about our grief over losing therapists, and talk about what healing looks like after.  We share about the impact of grief on our sobriety recovery.Larry's website and social media links:www.breakingtheruhls.com https://www.instagram.com/lruhlstudio/Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We process a therapy session in which we realized we didn’t have to be fawning anymore - and how dysregulating it was not to be fawning.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share our experience doing eye movements in therapy.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We chat with guest Peter Maves, a pioneer in the field and a colleague we work with planning conferences and building the professional training program with ISSTD.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk to our friend from college about our first diagnosis of DID and about religious trauma.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

While not going into detail, this episode discusses religious trauma explicitly and directly.  We share with the husband about receiving a message from a college friend who found the podcast.  We use what she shared and what we have done in therapy thus far to piece together part of a timeline… and grieve its implications.Content  Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with the husband about grieving those experiences we just can’t do anything about, how to learn from them, and what it’s like to let go and move on.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We tell the story of a hawk attacking one of our baby chicks, and then we share how our therapist tended that story like she does our dreams.Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Eli Somer, a clinician in Israel, joins us to discuss dissociative absorption, reality shifting, and maladaptive daydreaming.  He says the experience of non-traumagenic plurals is entirely valid, but also distinct from traumagenic DID.  He says that final fusion or integration is not the only treatment goal, nor a decision for the therapist to make.  He distinguishes the anthropological experience of multiplicity as a new phenomenon and a completely different thing than DID.  He shares about his research, when intentional dissociation does become maladaptive or abnormal, and what clinical trends are happening globally.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

This month in our NerdTown Topics Meetup, our colleague, Bill Woodburn, MEd, LPC-S, LMFT-S, shared about using stories in therapy.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share a dream we had that got processed in therapy.  Content note: trigger warning for passing reference to foster care, big feelings, therapy ruptures, and transference.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Kim is back because she had the ovaries to ask a really good question.  She discusses her experiences trying to support a loved one with DID.  She asks us if what happened with our previous Kelly (therapist) could have just been a misunderstanding.  We share our journey of how hard it was and how long it took to actually connect the birthday part experience to what happened when we were little.  Content note includes a trigger warning for reference to relational trauma. There is also passing reference to foster parents, grief, and Littles.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-ycare and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Kim is back because she had the ovaries to ask a really good question.  She discusses her experiences trying to support a loved one with DID.  She asks us if what happened with our previous Kelly (therapist) could have just been a misunderstanding.  We share our journey of how hard it was and how long it took to actually connect the birthday part experience to what happened when we were little.  Content note includes a trigger warning for reference to relational trauma. There is also passing reference to child exploitation/ pornography, but only in passing and not in detail and no disclosures made.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share our experience going to the doctor for our annual checkup, and discuss other routine care appointments.  Trigger warning for discussion of obgyn, annual women’s exams, mammograms, and other routine care such as dentists and eye doctors, as well as discussion of triggers and reference to big feelings in response to those triggers.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share our experience going to the doctor for our annual checkup, and discuss other routine care appointments.  Trigger warning for discussion of obgyn, annual women’s exams, mammograms, and other routine care such as dentists and eye doctors, as well as discussion of triggers and reference to big feelings in response to those triggers.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Dr. Joan Turkus, who shares her pioneer history in the field of traumatology.  She explains her perspective of trauma and dissociation, including clarifying the importance of the DSM despite its limitations.  We discuss psychodynamic and relational approaches to the trauma framework.  She shares some of her thoughts about the more pragmatic aspects of advocating for survivors in treatments.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We continue our discussion with Kirsten Stach.  Trigger warning for discussion of historical trauma.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest this week for two-part episodes is Kirsten Stach, MA, Dipl, MIACI.  We discussed trauma and dissociation.  We explore the neutralizing of shame through cognitive understanding of the brain and how it works.  She applies compassion to survivors, distinguishing what they have endured from the label of a diagnosis.  (Part 1 of 2).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we learned from a workshop by Dolores Mosquera about working with parts.  We share what she explained about why trust can be such an issue even when there is a solid therapeutic alliance in therapy.  We redefine the “Adult Self” based on her definition of “emerging and not yet defined”.  We discuss ideas for increasing awareness and cooperation.  Trigger warning for passing reference to parents as abusers, but no details or disclosures.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share a therapy update about how we are learning to orient ourselves to time.  We explain how and why we added “Kelly Time” and “Pandemic Time” to the list with Memory Time and now time.  I talk about why “Now Time” changed to “New Now Time”.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-ycare and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We visit with Jillian Hosey, a therapist in Toronto.  We explore presence in therapy, ruptures and repair, and the importance of our own work in caring for our clients.  This is a two-part conversation.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We visit with Jillian Hosey, a therapist in Toronto.  We explore presence in therapy, ruptures and repair, and the importance of our own work in caring for our clients.  This is a two-part conversation.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we read in the book “In Session” by Deborah Lott, as recommended to us by a podcast listener.  The author explores the relationship between women and their therapist, so please be aware of that as a general content trigger warning.  In this episode, we discuss what she wrote about the history of boundaries and why they really do matter.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-ycare and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we read in the book “In Session” by Deborah Lott, as recommended to us by a podcast listener.  The author explores the relationship between women and their therapist, so please be aware of that as a general content trigger warning.  In this episode, we discuss what she wrote about the history of boundaries and why they really do matter.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-ycare and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we read in the book “In Session” by Deborah Lott, as recommended to us by a podcast listener.  The author explores the relationship between women and their therapists, so please be aware of that as a general content trigger warning.  In this episode, we discuss how she came to know this relationship is called “transference” and what that means and why it’s so powerful - including how and why it hurts so much when something goes wrong.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-ycare and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Martha Straus, PhD, who works with adolescents struggling with trauma.  She explains how she talks with families about historical trauma.  She discusses helping parents co-regulation as part of empathic attunement.  She shares about the increasing complexity of adolescent brains developing into adult brains, and how all of us have parts navigating identity through that process.  She broadens the concept of body memories to include preverbal experiences later expressed as symptoms like under or over activation symptoms.  She explains how all developmental trauma is relational trauma because it takes place in a caretaking relationship.  She reframes self-harm as a protective strategy that “almost works”.  She shares what it’s been like doing teletherapy with adolescents during the pandemic.  She gives examples of repair after rupture.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about therapy, and what we are learning about the Inner Critic.  She tells how we learned to challenge those thoughts and feelings.  She shares painful insights from this experience, and what it means for us moving forward - toward healing.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We reflect on a chapter from the book “Complex PTSD” by Courtois and Ford, and discuss therapeutic relationships.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We reflect on a chapter from the book “Complex PTSD” by Courtois and Ford, and discuss therapeutic relationships.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest today is Maureen McEvoy, who volunteered to talk with us about re-enactment.  She provides three examples, including one that references sexual consent in marriage.  She clarifies that intrusions (like flashbacks) are when memory time invades now time, but re-enactment is when the same dynamic is actually happening again in now time (with different people or circumstances).  Trigger warning to passing reference to “home movies” which she uses in references to old messages and memories from the past (not child exploitation materials).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share an update about re-engaging in therapy, ever so slowly and carefully.  We shared how our new therapist used art and books to help us safely start talking in therapy again.  We talk about losing our previous therapist to Memory Time.  We talk about the book Complex PTSD and the book Stranger in the Mirror. Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We welcome Beauty After Bruises, who share their own stories of how the organization came to be and what they are doing to help the survivor and dissociative community.  Trigger  Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest, Dr. Nicole Black, shares the "Dissociative Experiences Cards" she has created for use with clients.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We presented at the ISSTD Annual Conference in 2021. This is part of that practice for preparing that presentation.  We discuss dyadic, community, intergenerational, disability, and historical traumas, as well as addressing trauma as experienced in war zones, refugee camps, and the pandemic.  We review the history of trauma diagnoses to explore the impact of these in the clinical setting and how that intersects with modern Plurality.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest this week is Richard P. Kluft, MD, one of the first and most extensively published research clinicians of dissociative disorders.  He tells the story of dissociation treatment, giving the history of how he stumbled into it himself, his friendship with Cornelia Wilbur, and the shifts in treatment over the decades.  He reflects on newer treatment tools and when they are beneficial and why sometimes they are not.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Elizabeth Power, who shares her story of dissociation in response to medical trauma (sans perpetrator), and how she has used her experiences to help others. We discuss shame, honoring hard feelings, and the authenticity of doing depth work to acknowledge pain and stay present with it so that it can be tended to and cared for well.  We talk about boundaries, betrayals, and how owning our big feelings gives us the power to choose our responses.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest this week is Mary-Anne Kate, PhD, from Australia.  She shares her research into Dissociation.  She explains how she educates about and advocates for a broader understanding of Dissociation.   She gives a history of the study of Dissociation, and about the silencing of survivors and the dismissing of their stories.  She explains her research comparing the fantasy and trauma models.  Trigger warning for reference to different types of abuse, but only in context of categorizing for research - no case studies, disclosures, or examples are discussed.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share about the anniversary of the deaths of our parents, and about receiving the news our therapist has died of COVID.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We review a piece of what John O’Neil discussed on the previous podcast.  We recap what we learned last year about how containment works to help regulate our big feelings.  We talk about communicating our needs and preferences directly and intentionally.  We share about the impact of our Deafness socially.  We talk about how we get to keep all our work for therapy and can generalize that progress to other areas of our life as we practice healing.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. John O’Neil, author of “the brick”, shares with us his story of how he began learning about dissociative disorders.  He explains the significance of the phenomenological model of dissociation, and how this is different from structural dissociation.  He explains about faculty dissociation, depersonalization and derealization, and how these are different from multiplicity.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Heather Hall, MD.  She shares her experience of treating complex trauma, including differentiating between dissociation and detachment.  She also shares about the impact of historical and societal trauma.  Trigger warning for case examples and a reference to suicide attempt (but passing reference only, no details or discussion about it).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

In a candid moment, Dr. E reflects on a conversation with a colleague and his coming out.  She shares a quote he sent her, and explores how that applies to DID.  She challenges our system to start building bridges.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Joyanna Silberg, Past President of ISSTD, and expert on dissociation in children and adolescents.  She shares with us about her work with children and trauma.  She talks about the capacity of dissociation as a gift to yourself!  She speaks to the impact of screen time on families, and she also shares about her work with trafficking victims.  Trigger warning for short and simple examples of abuse and trafficking in passing (not in depth).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Courtney shares about getting a new therapist, again, and agrees she may be a match this time.  We share about our safety plan, including twice a week sessions and learning to ask for help.  With some tapping and EMDR, she is able to consider letting the others back if our safety increases and the system can stabilize... and begins to understand they need to be included for that stabilization to happen.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Please note the heavy trigger warning for this episode.  We share about a hospitalization, with reference to suicide.  We share some (young adult) memories, with reference to domestic violence.  We talk about missing the other alters from the other circle, and why we can’t bridge to them right now.  We talk about starting over with a new therapist, again.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we discussed in therapy, about processing election week experiences.  We talk about realizing we can’t avoid pain, because someone always has to deal with it or handle it.  We talk about learning how there’s a world beyond trauma, like the perspectives of different dimensions.  We give the geometry of those, and explain why it matters that we connect with others - even though it is scary.  Trigger warnings for mention of guns, reference to a house fire, discussion of flashbacks, and math.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest, Annie Goldsmith, is a registered dietician who works with trauma, and she explains how dissociation and digestion are connected.  She explains why building safety and going very slowly is so important in bringing healing to both.  She explains disordered eating and intentional eating.  We discuss eating in the context of food scarcity and the pandemic.   Trigger warning for discussion of disordered eating, eating disorders, weight stigma, and food-related traumas (with one example given).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We speak with our guest Vivian Conan, author of “Losing the Atmosphere”, her memoir about Multiple Personality Disorder.  She shares about her misdiagnosis, a punitive therapist, and what it was like figuring out what was going on and getting an accurate diagnosis.  She shares about the decision to share her story, and what the writing process was like for her.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we learned from the recent ISSTD Virtual Conference on the Impact of Societal Trauma on Marginalized Communities.  We share about the different topics and speakers and what we experienced.  We share what Ellen K. Jepsen, PhD, from Norway taught about tolerating positive feelings.  We introduce other speakers for marginalized populations that will be coming on the podcast in future episodes.  We share about the critical understanding about relational trauma and shame, and how that broadens our understanding of trauma.  Reference only in topic listing to child trafficking and to racial trauma, but no details or discussion.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we learned and experiences in recent ISSTD conferences.  We open with the regional conference held in Kentucky with Robert Muller, who presented about slowing down therapy and how grounding is meant for dysregulation (not safety issues in therapy or the therapeutic relationship).  We explore the meaning of plurality and our own struggle with identity.  We share what we learned about the incongruence between the external and internal experience of the same events and interactions.  We also learned about how we sometimes get “stuck” because our prefrontal cortex goes offline, and why we have to stay within the Window of Tolerance to stay engaged.  We also share our experience starting EMDR class in the ISSTD program.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

David Archer is our guest, and he shares about prejudices, privilege, racism, racial trauma, white supremacy, and how healing comes when we love ourselves.  Trigger warning for references to racial violence, foster care and adoption, and politics.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share what we are learning about Betrayal Trauma.  We explain it, but focus on understanding how different parts of us have different responses to the same experience - such as leaving The Therapist a year ago.  We also share how understanding both of these pieces helps us as we begin Phase II work.  Trigger warning for reference to suicide attempt, but only in passing.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We have come up with new “rules” to help us remember what we have learned over the past year.  New phase of therapy.  New rules for life.  New us.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Dr. Laura Brown about her journey treating complex trauma.  She shares about the history of believing women’s stories when others did not.  She also explains why she does not use “disorder” with dissociative identities.  She also shares her experience with keeping a therapy dog in her office.  Trigger warning for mention of trauma cases and a variety of abuses, but no in depth discussion of specifics and no details disclosed.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We close our conversation with The English Teacher with more timeline and processing.  We talk about how parenting can trigger developmental trauma memories, but also how our past can help us be better parents.  She also explains about her experience in a Christian “cult” and what that was like realizing she wanted out.  We also talk some about switching, and how the last year impacted different parts’ access to safe people. We introduce the concept of Betrayal Trauma.  Trigger warning for mention of abuse, trafficking, pornography, adoption, rape, and developmental trauma.  Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

The conversation with The English Teacher continues, as she shares what it was like being groomed by a therapist for a relationship outside of therapy. We also discuss our transition away from The Therapist over the last year.   We also discuss friendship issues, and what is healthy and what is toxic.   Trigger warning for mention of abuse and grooming.   There is also a “cult” reference about a church, but in context of stopping the cycle (no details or any SRA or MC references, only the evangelical reference).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We explain the story of one of our only two lifelong friends, who was witness to some of our experiences.  We tell the husband about our experience interviewing her for therapy and maybe the podcast.  Trigger warning for references to abuse and trauma from parents, teachers, and youth ministers, but no specific disclosures or details are made. Also passing reference to mother’s suicide attempt, but only in a sentence and zero details or discussion.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest is Veronique Mead, MD, MA, who shares about trauma and chronic illnesses.  She explains about the ACEs and their impact.  She describes the epigenetic effect of trauma.  She shares how understanding these patterns opens up places for non-judgment and even compassion for ourselves and others.  Trigger warning for abuse mentioned and referenced, but no details or disclosures.  Links reference are included on the blog at www.SystemSpeak.orgTrigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest today is clinical psychologist Ken Benau.  He explains “relational trauma”, and why most people are not even aware of this trauma.  He talks about shame and “pro-being pride”, and how they are conscious or not, and what makes each maladaptive or adaptive.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Holly, a survivor with DID, about her journey in treatment, from diagnosis to pandemic.  Trigger warning for reference to sexual abuse and also to hospitalization, but neither discussed in depth.  No abuse details disclosed in this episode.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We discuss attachment with Dr. Linington from London, and explore the impact of caring styles on development and relational trauma.  He explains different attachment styles, and what that process looks like in the interactions between the parent and child.  He explains these Circles of Security, and also teaches us about Tetragrams.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We conclude our discussion about relational trauma by exploring what that looks like and how it applies to healing, parenting, relationships, and friendships.  We explain how this expands the understanding of memory time, and the process by which it invades now time. This is different than incident specific trauma, and explains why grounding or content work isn’t enough for healing and orienting.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We continue our discussion about our experiences at the ISSTD virtual conference.  Our medical doctor friend shares what she learned about addiction, emotions, and the drama triangle - and how all of that works to help internal teamwork (even persecutors).  We also share the big research we learned about relational trauma being more damaging than even physical or sexual abuse.  No details or examples of specific abuses discussed.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview a friend who is a medical doctor who previously had not studied trauma, but attended the ISSTD virtual conference with us.  She shares what this experience was like for her, what she learned, and how it has changed her practice with patients.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We welcome back Christine Forner, to share after the virtual ISSTD conference.  She talks about the “Cascade of Defense”.  She explains Active and Inactive Defenses.  She gives feminist context to survivor experiences and treatment.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share session summaries from the ISSTD virtual conference.  (Previous episodes reflected on full day sessions.)Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Summary from ISSTD Conference session on attachment, suicidality, and dissociation.  Trigger warning for reference to suicidality, but it is in no way discussed in content or any detail.  Trigger warning also for in depth discussion and non-detailed examples of relational trauma.  No abuse disclosures made in this episode.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

I tell you a (true) story.  Trigger warning for mention of abuse and abuse dynamics, but examples only referenced in passing.  No in depth discussion or detailed disclosures.  Trigger warning also for mention of God.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We chat with three other systems about what therapy has been like during the pandemic.  Trigger warning for reference to video and mask and confinement triggers, but these are not discussed in depth or detail.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Our guest this week is Richard Schwartz, PhD, who developed the treatment model of Internal Family Systems.  He explains that everyone is born “Multiple” and that “all parts are good”.  He gives the history of developing the model and examples of how it works.  Trigger warning for doorbell alert in background noise we were unable to edit out.  There is also reference to working with a suicidal part, without any graphic details.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share about reading chapters two and three in “Trauma and Recovery”.  We give examples of hyperarousal, intrusions, and constriction.  We try to apply it to our own healing, including relationships.  Trigger warning for flashback reference, but no trauma details disclosed.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E shares about a book she discovered through a class with the ISSTD.  She explores what she has learned about Charcot, Janet, and Freud.  She gives the historical context of their rivalry, and how that later connected to research with veterans who had endured combat.  She tells how the book explains the women’s movement as the catalyst in connecting the two, so that trauma could finally be openly discussed - much less treated.  Trigger warning for mention of abuse, incest, and war experiences, but no disclosures or details given.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with Peter Barach, PhD, about our clinical experiences of the transition to telehealth because of COVID.  He shares about the importance of eye contact in stopping flashbacks.  We share about trying to cope with quarantine as a new trauma without creating a new alter.  We discuss trauma triggers experienced in quarantine, including physiological responses on the PolyVagal ladder.  Examples given include reference to war zones, entrapment, and foster care. Dr. Barach reviews several basic coping skills and  relaxation techniques.  We talk about resources like EMDR apps and interventions that support people while we wait for in person sessions resume.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E shares about an all day seminar she attended on Accelerated Experiential Dynamic Psychotherapy.  She explains its emphasis on the therapeutic relationship.  She discusses “core emotions” and “defenses”, as well as what got triggered for us internally during the training.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We share about a therapy session where we learn about creating safe places inside. We also talk about trying to be more connected to our body.  We share about “containment”, which we are learning helps us hold things until our next therapy session.  Then we cheer ourselves up with your mail and emails!Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We finally get to share the survey results from last year’s PPWC conference!  We had hoped for 100 responses, and ended up with more than 800!  Trigger warning for the monotonous report of numbers and percentages, as well as reference to some triggering content (such as the ACEs questionnaire).  You can read along on the blog or look at it there if that is easier.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about her progress in therapy, including improvements in being able to face hard things in therapy with less dissociating but also compassion for herself when she does (and why she does).  She references flashbacks, but in a not scary way.  She shares about getting stronger as we expose ourselves to the trauma of the past.  No specific trauma are disclosed in this episode.  Trigger warning for reference to grief and feelings of loss.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We welcome Dave Berger to the podcast, to hear him explain about the physiological impact of trauma and how sensory experiencing helps.  He talks about how working within the context of the body, using touch safely or even without touch, brings healing by increasing our awareness and processing trauma physiologically.  He talks about why (safe and appropriate) physical connection is part of a full attunement experience.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

After receiving a truth bomb text message from our best friend, we have to admit she is right.  We share what we are learning about “turning toward” instead of “turning away”, and reference Gottman’s work.  We discuss how this could be applied internally as well as externally, and review how receiving and initiating connections are both important - as well as simply making the choice to actively commit to staying connected (in good and safe relationships).Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about meeting the new therapist and deciding we have found a good fit.  She also shares about when we met a friend from lunch, and learning to be more actively participating in friendship.  She closes by playing “Fight Song” on cello.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk about “overt” and “covert” presentation of DID.  We explain the differences a bit, and talk about the difference between the internal and external perspectives of this.  We take it one step further, noticing the implication of needing to be more overt as part of authenticity but also the tension of covert feeling protective.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger warning for an emotionally intense episode.  Kassi and Taylor have big feelings, which Kassi thinks she can vent on the podcast but the emotions spill over.  We also realize that our children’s ages have suddenly become a new trigger.  This leads to flashbacks, ending the episode before we can finish what we were going to share.  Please care for yourself during and after the episode if your choose to listen to this episode.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E shares an article she found that explains integration and differentiation as a normal part of healthy development.  She quotes a few pieces of the article to explain ego states, as well as explore how these concepts are defined.  This leads her to an insight about all of us being a part a greater Me, even the parts that are not-me.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

This episode is the second part of the previous episode, continuing the conversation with the husband during a visit between deployments.  In this episode, he shares about his experience with EMDR and how it helped with his clarity of thought and his depression.  His framework gives insights into our discussion about co-consciousness and increased awareness.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with the husband between deployments, processing a bit about some internal changes in regards to increased co-consciousness and changing therapists.  We also talk about the pull between connecting with friendships and disconnecting when what feels safe feels hard.  Trigger warning for reference to Christmas and to God, but only in context to the time of year in passing.  There is also a reference to being trapped and a mention of blood, but only in passing as part of a poem.  There are also explicit statements, without any details or further disclosure, that the mother hurt us and the father touched us, as part of the poem.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We welcome Pam Stavropoulos, PhD.  She shares about her work with the Blue Knot Foundation in Australia, and changes in the field since 2012 and the addition of CPTSD as a diagnosis with ICD11.  She discusses in depth the research behind the new Practice Guidelines for Clinical Treatment of Complex Trauma just released at the end of 2019.Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We speak with Lynne Harris.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk with our friend Meghan, whom we met in person at Healing Together.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E recaps seeing Kathy Steele at a conference.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Jane from A&E's Many Sides of Jane.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha and The Husband talk about therapy.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We recap our experience of Healing Together.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We recap our experience of Healing Together.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

JohnMark explores Healing Together.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Taking about travel to healing together. Mentions clothing changes, anxiety, panic attacks. Lots of switching. Talks about dogs, working dogs, walking, littles and stuffies. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma processes after therapy and talks about an internal meeting. It does share inner world information and internal roles.  It mentions the Lowes and that they are dead and the girl locked in a chest. Emma reads the meeting notes, then John(Mark) shows up to talk about therapy. Therapist still has the notebooks.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.  ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about answering a survey before the healing together conference. Mentions learning that eyes might be a trigger. She processes her experience with the survey being difficult and scary. The questions get hard so Emma disappears and Sasha shows up. Mentions of types of abusive experiences in childhood including physical, emotional, sexual, and neglect. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system (and their guest speakers) are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website and podcast does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website and podcast does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Some natural pauses due to dissociation during presentation remain in the recording for authencity, and have not been edited out.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Some pauses due to dissociating are left in the podcast for authenticity, rather than being edited out.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  Their website and podcast do not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Some pauses due to dissociating are left in the podcast for authenticity, rather than being edited out.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  Their website and podcast do not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Some natural pauses due to dissociation during presentation remain in the recording for authencity, and have not been edited out.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website and podcast does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Trigger Warning:  Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services.   ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

John(Mark) is in the hotel after therapy because of snow. Talks about Taylor going to therapy and gives the circle notebook to the therapist. John and the therapist plan a rescue mission and mention mens, studio, pictures, and saving a girl locked in a room. You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Warwick Middleton from Australia about dissociation, and he discusses organized abuse.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha reads through the Circle Notebook.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E shares about age and development in response to a listener question.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We explain about different “hosts” and tell the story of the Three Emmas:  Emma Z dealt with what happened to us in shiny-happy-college, Emma T dealt with life after and dating girls, and then Emma S (C) married Nathan for safety after knowing him two weeks and without any sexual contact.  We share what co-consciousness is and how therapy has helped with blending.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha references Healing Together, and walks while she talks about internal worlds.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha shares what she has learned from group led by The Crisses, including language about ANPs and EPs.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha shares what she knows about Littles.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Taylor talks about protectors watching therapy, trying to watch out for what is happening in therapy, trying to trust in therapy, and boundaries.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

JohnMark crunches through the leaves, talks about needs in therapy, and announces Snack Time.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Matt Pappas.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma describes losing time, waking up in a closet, and also having a panic attack that causes her to miss a medical delivery.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Additional zoom groups are optional, but only available by joining the groups. Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We talk about a Mad in America article that discusses dissociation and psychosis.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We interview Colin Ross.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha interviews Nathan, and they discuss the experience of living with DID and someone who has it.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about therapy, learning about trauma and dissociation, and noticing the others inside.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha drives to therapy and shares about disorientation.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Sasha talks about sharing the podcast with Nathan, therapy, and how hard it is to have friends and receive care.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Emma shares about DID, journaling, nightmares, lost time, and hearing and seeing others inside.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

JohnMark plays in the snow with the outside children.  There are snacks.  He introduces "NTIS", which means "Now Time Is Safe".You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

Dr. E explains DID in the context of shame theory.  The name Dr. E is a reference to what she is called at work because of her PhD; she is not a medical doctor or giving any therapeutic advice.  She explains her understanding of dissociation in the context of Patricia DeYoung’s shame theory, and explains why most “acting out” is really misattunement, and how healing comes through connection (attunement) with others.  She references the “Still Face Experiment” which can be searched and found on YouTube.  Some clarification between abuse and neglect is explained, but no graphic or personal examples are given.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★

We introduce our system and why we are doing the podcast.You can JOIN THE COMMUNITY HERE.  We have peer support check-in groups, an art group, a lego group, movie groups, and social events.  Join us!  Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general.  Content descriptors are generally given in each episode.  Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research reporting this makes triggers worse.  Please use appropriate self-care and your own safety plan while exploring this website and during your listening experience.  Natural pauses due to dissociation have not been edited out of the podcast, and have been left for authenticity.  While some professional material may be referenced for educational purposes, Emma and her system are not your therapist nor offering professional advice.  Any informational material shared or referenced is simply part of our own learning process, and not guaranteed to be the latest research or best method for you.  Please contact your therapist or nearest emergency room in case of any emergency.  This website does not provide any medical, mental health, or social support services. ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★