You've gone through the trauma of losing your baby and now it's Christmas. It's a time to celebrate with family and be jolly... only you don't have your little bundle of joy to hold in your arms or hang a stocking for. In this one-off Christmas special, Maya and Zinnia chat about how they found their first Christmases without their little ones and share tips that helped them get through the festive period. And as always they have a good old mother's moan whilst also finding some cheer in their regular big up feature.